Day One (But Actually Day Two)

This blog is for me and for any random person who happens to fall upon it. As you can guess from the title, it's going to be dedicated to the theme of falling out of love. And as you can also guess, this is most likely being written because someone has already gone to the trouble of falling out of love with me. Might as well reciprocate the generosity.

Wow, I just read that last sentence and it sounds snarky. I guess I am feeling a little snarky. Mostly hurt though. I've cried a whole lot. It's only day two and I'm sure the salt water coming out of my eyes could have been used to refill some dry lake beds somewhere. 

How'd it happen? I don't know. I don't know how you fall out of love with someone. I don't know how happiness becomes doubt. If I did, I think it wouldn't hurt so much. I could put it into a logical perspective and get over it within minutes. But not everything is logical. Sometimes it IS just about feelings. It is just about hurt. 

But I don't want to cry forever. I don't want to feel this heaviness in my heart. So this blog is to get over it. To write down everything I'm feeling, to reevaluate the relationship and to get back to me. To get back to being okay with it just being about me.

This is how I feel today:

The dark setting is due to it being rainy outside. It's going to be rainy all week. This has everything to do with it being the summer and me living in Florida, but I'm going to pretend my emotions control the weather. Cause that would be awesome and very X-Men's Storm of me.